Music is my drug. I fell in love with my guitar; ♥Jake walden251207.
My guzheng's ♥XiaoXi & my piano's ♥Bridgette! [:
I'm from ♥SACPS PRCS, & ♥President of the 7th Student Council.
♥1505'94 is the oh-so-awesome BOD.
Proud Christian in Cornerstone & Gen 3.6 ♥Gen 3.2.
I can't live without my Samsung Preston; ♥Purppelle Marcel Bing.
People say i'm short, i'd say i'm ♥small&petite} ;]

Monday, March 26, 2007 { 3:18 AM }

I love this song.. when i feel sad ordepressed i always listen to it...
Its so sweet...

Yong wo de wan an pei ni
Chi zhao can
Ji de ba xiang nian
Chun zai pu man
Wo wang zhe man tian xing zai shan
Ting niu lang dui zhe nu shuo yao yong gan
Bei pa wo men zai di qiu de liang duan
Kan wo de wen hou
Qi zhe mo tan
Fei yong guang shu fei dao
Ni mian qian
Yao ni neng kan dao shi zi xing you bei ji xing zhou ban
Sao le wo de shou bei dang zhen tou
Ni xi bu xi guan
Ni de wang shu jing wang bu dao wo bei ban qiu de gu dan
Tai ping yang de chao shui gen zhe di qiu lai hui xuan zhuan
Wo hui nai xin de deng
Sui shi huan ying ni kao an
Sao le wo de huai bao dang nuan nu
Ni xi bu xi guan
E gei ni zhao pian kan bu dao wo bei ban qiu de gu dan
Shi jie zai da liang ke zhen xin jiu neng
Hu xiang qu nuan
Xiang nian bu hui tou lan
Wo de meng tong tong ge ni bao guan

Labels: ; Waiting for you in the silence... ##

Friday, March 23, 2007 { 7:02 PM }

As i walked through the pathway under the void deck on my way home..
i felt a prescence...
the prescence of my conscience, my heart and my memories...
Walking down that path.
it felt as if i was walking down a path in memory lane..
Each door i passed was like a memory...
And different doors held different memories...
But they were all filled with sorrow and confusion....
And i seemed to keep asking myself.. Why?


but i myself.. i didn't know the answer to it...
to any of it...
i had so many questions...
but the answers were all unclear...
Maybe the monster inside of me had unleashed itself...
the fear and the sadness...
My conscience had lost control of itself...
the anger and confusion...
what was right? what was wrong?
the difference... i could not tell...


My heart opened up everytime i closed my eyes...
it opened to me the memories i had
long wanted to forget...
the memories i had buried deep in my heart...
and i hated that view...
i hated the feelings i had when i saw them...
It was filled with emotions...
everywhere...
it showed me..
my past....
the obstacles...
t reminded me of my past and present troubles...
All the emotions i had felt when going through with them
add together with the ones i had now..
it was like hell...


But through that journey
i realised something..
those past obstacles of my life..
I didn't push them away..
i faced them..
i over comed them...
i then noticed a side of me that i never saw before...
i was brave..
i was couragous..
Through those emotions a felt a higher self-esteem...
more confidence...

When i opened mhy eyes it all just simply...
faded..
just when things were going the right way..


I wanted to feel it when i opened my eyes...
But instead found myself..
trapped in dreadful webs of lies...
and hopeless miracles...
obstacles that looks impossible to overcome...


i want to close my eyes again..
but when i do...
i see only my past...
It adds trauma to my heart..
and causes chaos to my consience...


I know i'm not alone..
and i will never be..
someone is beside me...
but i don't know who...
he or she is giving me the strangth to carry on...
He or she makes me feel as if i an overcome these obstacles..
or maybe its just my heart or my conscience..
thats leading me to a path of light..
i know that if i believe in myself, strive and be determined...
i know i can do it...

But will they ever be a part f me?
Some questions justdon't have answers to them...
Are all my questions like that?
is this question to be the same?
Some things..
are just not meant to be known...


But i know one things for sure....
It hurts...
And it hurts me bad...

;Confessions of a broken heart...
## The rainbow of emotions...