if only you gave us a chance♥

Thursday, October 30, 2008 { 7:45 AM }

MY NAME --- Vanessa!
1. Four letter word ; Vein
2. Boy name ; Victor
3. Girl name ; Victoria
4. Occupation ; Vet
5. Colour ; Violet
6. Something you wear ; Vest
7. Beverage ; Vodka
8. Food ; Vegetable
9. Place ; Vernice/Virginia
10. Something found in bathroom ; Velvet cloth
11. Reason for being late ; Very sleepy!
12. Something you shout ; Vanakam!!
13. Font ; Verdana
14. TV show ; Vasantham can?
15. Song Title ; Valentino - Bowling for soup (the internet is a usful resource! :D)

MUAHAHA.

Labels: i'vehadENOUGH, jerk.

{ 5:25 AM }

1) Last night, did u go to sleep happy?
I think so.

2) When was the last time you changed clothes in front of someone?
A long long time ago.

3) Anyone told you a secret this week?
yup.

4) Did you have a good day yesterday?
YES! kbox. :D

5) What was the highlight of today?
CIP Cambodia! (:

6) Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yes, to save battery, or when i'm really really scared it'll ring in an important event.

7) What happened at 3:00pm today?
I laughed my butt off with the sec 2 cambodia team(:

8) When was the last time you took a picture with your number 1 friend?
i don't know. All my friends are number 1? So i guess ytd? haha.

9) Do you hate anyone?
nope! hate is a strong word.

11) Do they know who they are?
Who? =_=

12) What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
I don't like peanut butter~ >x(

3) When did you last cry?
good question. A couple of days ago? i would say thursday.

14) Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
nope! I'm not an idiot like lixuan. :D

15) Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
erm. honestly, nope.

17) When was the last time you bought something?
Wow. is food counted? Haha. i don't know about others though, quite long ago.. I seldom shop?

18) Have you ever told someone you love them?
yes..

19) Do you continue fighting in an argument even though you know you're wrong?
Nope, its just not right.

21) Where are you right now?
At home. (: not really. my aunt's house, but i live here temporarily.

22) Is there anyone that calls you baby?
yeap. eileen. T_T Some of my pri sch. friends. (:

23) In the next 2 months what are you looking forward to the most?
okok. Class chalet, outings and CAMBODIA, BABY! :D

24) Why?
Thats a stupid question. Its fun.

25) Who did you last call?
jie jie Jannie, my cousin. (:

26) What are you thinking of right now?
Shhh. Thats for me to know and for you to find out. xP

27) You partied? When and where was the last time?
nope. I don't party.

30) Have you ever sat and waited for someone to come online?
Yes.. don't want to think about it.

31) When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry?
Today!

33) Did you tell someone something today?
Nope.

34) Do you like make-up?
Its alright. but not really. I thnk Natural is best. But a little lip gloss or eye liner won't hurt. not that i do use them, though.

35) Do you like dressing up?
yes! (: its the only pretty side of my uglyness. and its still ugly, but better than usual (:

36) Have you ever considered a sex change?
erm. Nope. I don't object to people who do it, but not for me.

38) What will you buy next?
its between clothes, dress, presents or a star orange carebear. :D

2) Have any crazy family members?
yes! my sister is mentally unsound. HAHA. For real? Nope, not that i know of.

39) Are you bored?
Not really(:

40) What's on your mind right now?
Shh. thats for me to knwo and for you to find out. I thought i already said that? =_=

41) What are you wearing?
My usual shirt and shorts... why? -.- Is that even RELEVANT?

42) Any plans for today?
Yes! Go snack. probably do theory homework. maybe practice gz. :D

43) What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
She's my cousin. (:

45) What's your favorite Gatorade flavor?
i don't know. grape, probably. but blueberry isn't bad. :D

46) What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
i don't know, theres a couple.
Sebrina: Hey darling :) Are you okay?
Shayne: Thank u. Ur oso girly, in a gd way.
-: I love you soo much =) [DELETED]

48) What's beside you right now?
What? My phone. (:

49) Where do you want to be right now?
SOMEEEWHHEERREEE OVVERR THE RRAINNBOOWWW!~

50) What is it that you find so hard to forget?
That thing you did.. ): Shh!

TAG:
people i tagged for the previous questionare.

Went to kbox ytd. was super fun! took alot of retarded photos... (:
Sebrina can sing, baby!
li xuan's not too bad herself! xD
Had soo much fun. (; took alot of retarded pcitures with amd of lixuan.

suprisingly, the boys sang too! it was really cute. (:

They were singing all the small things, pump it, my humps, etc. (: haha

Had alot of fun

Lixuan played the spongebob game at arcade. and she made me play para para. like. ohmygawd. haha. We were waiting for sebrina darling to go eat dinner. haha.
Then i made lixuan die 2 times! HAHA. Waste her money seh. xPP

packing for Cambiodia tuierns out more fun than hard work. Well both together, actually.
We laughed our butts off. Really. I almost cried. Went for lunch together.
i kept playing with the shoot shoot! xPP
then saw wei qi, shayne, wei ji, yan xiang all that. They came back to take O levels. All the best!
Charmaine is a merlion! xDD

Labels: itshard...

{ 4:27 AM }

1)Whats your full name?
Vanessa Chua Xinyi

2)Do you like your first name?
Are you kidding? vanessa is an awesome name. (=< All Vanessas rock. HAHA. Kidding. but my parents chose this name for me. i like it. (:

3)How long have you liked the person you currently like?
Hmm.. Probably since.. Three days before his birthday? so.. 26th September, i totally fell for him completely. How long is that?
34 days.

4)Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours?
I havem't lost my first kiss yet, and i'm proud of it. :DBtw, i don't intend to till i'm much older! (:

5)Did you cry today?
Nope. its an improvement. (:

6)What are you doing this morning at 8am?
bathing! preparing to go school to help pack for CIP cambodia :D

7)What are you doing an hour ago?
I was really tired and sleepy? So I was taking a nappy! *oink* xP

8)What are you currently doing?
This? and listening to my own blog songs.

9)Who last texted you a msg?
I think.. Celeste! She said she was going to be late(: Poor thing, injured her back. Hope it gets better! (:

10)Have to told anybody that you love them today?
Sadly not.. maybe to mommy, grandma and daddy tonight before i sleep :D

11)Do you miss anyone now?
Are you kidding? duh.

12)Any plans for tomorrow?
Yes! go back to school to pack. Then go piano class(:

13)What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
Can i not say? probably over * and the other girl.

14)Is there anyone you want to be with now?
Yeap..

15)Have you kissed anyone who's name starts with C?
I HAVEN'T LOST MY FIRST KISS. STOP AKING ME THAT!

16)Name someone who make you smiles today, how?
All the combodia team people and Shayne(: The combodia people made me laugh my butt off. I smiled at Shayne when i said hi? =_=

17)Name a friend who's name starts with 'Z'
zhangmin baobei(:

18)Which of your friend stays closest to you?
Last time? Moron Yan yuan..
Now? Aaron wong?

19)Do you prefer to call or to text?
I like both. Sometimes i prefer texting, cause i'm afraid when i talk on the phone, i don't know what to say then there'll be an awkward silence. >.<

20)Was yesterday better than today?
Yes, i guess you could say so(:

21)Can you live a day without tv and your phone?
Yeap, why not? i loveee technology, and would prefer not to live without it, but i can if i had to(:

22)Are you mad about anything now?
Nope. Wait. Not really, anyways. (: Upset, disappointed and sad. But not at this moment now.

23)Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it?
Depends on the guy, but at this age, probably not. Our emotions aren't stable enough to take bgr problems, wait till we're more mature and older.(:

24)Last person you visited in a hospital?
My friend's mom whom i'm really close to ):

25)When is your last and second last hug?
This morning.. To charmaine and celeste. :D

6)What does the last text msg in your inbox says?
Shayne: haha. thank u. Ur in sch rite?

27)How do you feel about your life now?
Could be better.

28)Do you hate anyone?
Nope! (: hate is a really strong word!

29)Last person you called?
My cousin, Jannie.

30)Who usually sent you the most texts in a mth?
Last last time hehan
Last time Destin
Now Shayne i think. (:

which month?
Last last time 5 or 6 months straight?
Last time May to September/october.
Now? this month. (:

31)Is your room messy now?
Can say so. but better than usual, i guess. gotta clean up!

32)Who will be mad if your room is messy?
My dad! Clean freak. xP but i love'em.

33)Your shortest relationship?
i wouldn't exactly count it. =x but two weeks.

34)Who do you look like?
I don't know what you mean, but.. a nerd? Wait. I look like. oh i know! Vanessa Chua Xinyi! :D :OO

35)Tag 10 people to do this survey
1.) Laura
2.)Celeste
3.)marilyn
4.)Huiyi
5.)Zhangmin
6.)Jaime
7.) Fiona Ip
8.) Lixuan
9.) Rachel
10.) you. :D

Labels: imy.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008 { 8:19 AM }

Dirt Low
Your self esteem is... well, kinda low. BUCK UP!! You're a great person, you just don't feel o-so-wonderful compared to others. Start trying to feel like you're equal to others. Because you are! You're even quite a bit cooler!! Don't let words bring you down. Once you aren't afraid to show yourself, the world can see how beautiful you are; inside AND out!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

Okay. So sebrina got me stuck on quizzes, right. I took this quiz. its called: how high is your self-esteem. Go try it. I got dirt low.

MELLIE ROCKS!!
NESSA LOVES SMELLY SOCKS!!!
I HAVE GOLDEN LOCKS!!
NESSA LOVES TO TALK COCK!!
haha.

Saturday, October 25, 2008 { 8:20 AM }

[In life we face all kinds of obstacels and difficultires.. the outcome is the reflection of your preperation.]

Okay.. the holidays have just began.
Off with a terrible start,
but its getting better..

Been moodswinging since.. ytd..
It feels terrible.
I hope tomorrow will be better..
And maybe.. just hopefully..
i'll end with a perfect 08.

Monday i'm watching butterfly lovers with lixuan they all(:
[Cheer up.. I'm really sorry. I didn'tknow it would end this way for you. I know its hard for you.. Smile..
Please don't be sad. I'm sorry i added to your pain.. But i'm just as hurt as you are. perhaps.. even more.]

GIVE YOU HELL - all american rejects ( thanks to daddy. (: )

I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place.
And you're still probably working
At a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car
Did it ever get you far?
You never seemed so tense, love
Never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man thatfs worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool youfre just as well hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow youfll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on
Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man thatfs worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool youfre just as well hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
If you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then hefs a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you hear this song and you sing along well youfll never tell
And youfre the fool Ifve just as well I hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope it puts you through hell

Labels: ihopeeverylittlething'sgonnabealright..

Tuesday, October 21, 2008 { 3:19 AM }

This wednesday is EMP concert, at 5. (: For sec 29, only the 10 of us are doing solos.. Sadded. Okay. Good luck, people! haha. I'm gonna go practice my guzheng! (: For exams and the solo. Pray hard i'll do alright!! :D:D Haha. (: SCARED SCARED SCARED. What if i get stage fright?? T_T

[Wow. Those words.. sound so familiar. I wonder. Could i ask. Do you say that sentence to all of them? You should really CHANGE your pickup line. Its getting old. Its not your fault. I don't blame you. But. WTH. Seriously. Then again.. everyone deserves a second chance. I really don't know what i want.]

{ 1:41 AM }

Hey people.
Okay. I'm feeling better, a little.

haha. Talked to madam Rozilla today! She said that the teachers check our blogs. haha.
People, becareful of what you post, ya? xDD Haha.

Okay. This post will be long. I'm gonna state ALL my results. xDD Ooh. but i don't have my worst. My CA1. I'll try to remember.

Anyways,
My mid year results really pulled me down alot.
Here're my scores. (: Comparing MYEs to EOYs. (not including CAs)

MYE:
English: 57/100 [C5]
Mathematics: 55/100 [C5]
Science: 55/100 [C5]
Chinese (mother tongue): 61/100 [B4]
Literature: 66/100 [B3]
Goegraphy: 66.5/100 [B3]
D&T: 63/100 [B4]
Art: 55/100 [C5]

EOY:
English: 66/100 [B3] (improved!)
Mathematics: 70.5/100 [A2] (improved!)
Science: 72/100 [A2] (improved!)
Chinese (mother tongue): 64/100 [B4] (improved!)
Literature: 72/100 [A2] (improved!)
History: 67/100 [B3]
Home economics: 66/100 [B3]
Art: 66/100 [B3] (improved!)

=_= wow. LOL.

CA1, from what i remember:
English: A2
Mathematics: F9
Science: B3?
Chinese: C6
Literature: A2?
Geography: A1
D&T: A1
Art: C6?

CA2:
English: 70.2/100 [A2] (no change)
Mathematics: 72/100 [A2] (improved!)
Science: 83.8/100 [A1] (improved!)
Chinese (mother tongue): 49.5/100 [D7] (deproved..)
Literature: 20/100 [F9] (deproved..)
History: 75.5/100 [A1]
Home economics: 79.5/100 [A1]
Art: 63.5/100 [B4] (improved!)

Okay. now i'll compare my Overalls. just by grades. (:

MYE:
English: B3
Mathematics: C6
Science: C5
Chinese (mother tongue): C5
Geography: B3
Literature: B3
D&T: A2
Art: C6
CME: A
Music: B

Class position: 23/40
Level position: 106/ 203

EOY (whole year, including MYE):
English: B3 (no change)
Mathematics: B4 (improved!)
Science: B3 (improved!)
Chinese (mother tongue): C5 (no change)
Literature: B3 (no change)
History: A2
Home Economics: A2
Art: B4 (improved!)
CME: A
Music: A (improved!)

Class position: 18/39
Level position: 88/203

Sigh. This year was terrible.
I hope next year will be better. :D
Pray hard, yeah?
No use crying over spilt milk..

Iwanna wish all my darling Secondary 4 seniors taking their O levels this year
All the best for their exams.
Good luck!

You will all pass with flying colours!! ((:

Love you all. :D

Cell group on saturday was super fun. Too many things to elaborate.
Poor cell leader. ((; But so nice to see him so happy after the whole surprise.
The only bad part of that day was Shayne hurting his foot (poor thing!!!) and. Leaving. haha.
Sunday went for service, left early. (:

okay okay. erm. CREDITS! very long never have le.
Special thanks to:

*Sebrina! : Thank you so much, darling.. For always being there for me. I know you're hurting too. Cheer up, okay? we'll both get through this together

*Clique: Thanks, girls. Love you all loads. You guys cheered me up so much.

*Shan: Cheer up, girl. Love you loads. Thanks for being there for me. (:

*Kanasaiis! : Hey girls, i wanna thank all of you. for all these two years, i love you guys loads. And always will. (: XOXO.

*2/9 boys: Wow. Its been hell of a year with you guys. ((; But i had so much fun, and you guys ALWAYS was there to cheer me up. Not that bad afterall, yeah? haha! Loves!

*Gen 3.6: Thank you.. for everything. Theres so much to thank, I won't be aable to express my grtitude in words. i love you guys! ((:

* Nadia, Maliah 7 the rest of "the circle": Thank you darlings. For always being there for me. Through ups and downs. (: Love you loads.. Remember, whats said in the circle remains within it. xD Loves! XOXO.

*Destin: For everything, especially for helping me trust someone again. Thank you(:

*Fiona, Che Wei and Eugene: The encouragement, and trying to cheer me up. thank you(:

*2/9: Once a '2908, always a '2908. I'll remember every single one of you always, and no matter what class we end up in, we'll always have 2908 and 1907 in our hearts, yeah? I treasure every memory i shared together with you guys as a class. I'll miss you all soo much.. ): I love 2908/1907!!

[imy loads.]

Labels: Youhelpedmemakeanimportantdecision;iacceptedchrist.

Thursday, October 16, 2008 { 6:59 AM }

today got back the final results..
Suck like shit..
My position was 88.. ):
I worked so hard la.
I don't want to think about anything anymore.
2008 just totally sucked la..
its been a really hard week for me.
Been really really sad.

Labels: i'm sorry..

Tuesday, October 14, 2008 { 2:51 AM }

I'll be fine. I'll get through this and come out stronger.
I just want you to be happy.

Anyways. Today recieved 4 results.. ):
I'm super sad la.. cause i didn't do well..
and i studied really hard..
So far:
Science: 72
English: 66
History:67
Art: 66

SIGH. ):

Labels: happyforyouthatyoudidwell(:

Monday, October 13, 2008 { 6:49 AM }

I'M FINE, KAY.
FORGET EVERYTHING.
JUST. BE HAPPY.

Thunder
Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breez
eI need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder.

Fall for you
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start
Oh, but hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

tonight
I remember the times we spent together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And I used to feel like dreamin
'Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can't just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can't just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can't just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

Labels: I need to learn to shut up.

{ 4:42 AM }

Thanks, everyone for trying to cheer me up.I really appreciate it. (:
I had alot of fun today.
Went to ehub to slack with li xuan and charmaine..
Then met Mun mun, wei ling and Vanetta.
Sigh. but the last part, we went to 77th street. saw some caps. Passed by royal sporting house. Went to kalms to see tatty teddy cards and teddy bears. Also passed tampines. the moment i was back alone on the bus on the way back, passed a soccer field, basketball court. Sianded. Its everywhere. HAUNTING ME, I TELL YOU! haha.
Anyways, i sang my heart out today. (:It was kinda cool. The lunch was nice..It took my mind off everything.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow.
Seriously.
I don't ever want to see the people there again.
Don't want to get back my exam papers..
Its gonna be a sucky end of year..b
ut must remain optimistic.
Its seriously hard. But i'm trying!!
Lately,
Seconds past like minutes
minutes pass like hours
hours pass like days
& days pass like years.

[iknowyou'refinewithoutme.i'mhappythatyou'rehappy.butidomissyoualot.]

Sunday, October 12, 2008 { 6:03 AM }

Thanks, Gen 3.6! Love you guys.. (:

They made me feel so much better..
I hope everything's gonna turn out fine.
Okay.
I gotta stop thinking about it.
I'll move on, right?

Today i went to the cornerstone for the first time.
It was nice. (:
& today the topic was pity party.
About shame. Which i thought was very.. important. (: I can't find the word.
Haha. Anyway, it was AHA. It was appropriate. yeah.
And it made me feel a little better about myself.
Then went for lunch with shayne, jordan, yang rong (yang yang rong? =_=), georgina, donavon, wye kiet (don't know how to spell) and Gerard.. haha. Fun. donavon!! My face IS NOT THAT small, kay! Its your hand thats big. Shayne and Jordan also. Your hand is big. xD My hands are normal sized!! xD
And Thank you donavon, for praying for me. (:
I think i'm just about ready to accept Christ ba.
Anyways then we had a very very long lunch and i took 12 with shayne, jordan and sillia? cillia? hee. don't know how to spell her name. Anyway, they were all really nice to me.
Shayne thought me how to play that weird concentration or dunno what game that li xuan all that always play. xDD haha. He entertained me throughout. So did jordan la. That clumsy guy. Spilt water! Haha. Poor aunty had to clean up for him. But he did help. He went to the stall to borrow the cloth. We were saying he could become cleaner. TEEHEE.
When the ice water came, He was like "I should've ordered red bull! *knocks cup down accidentily*" =_= Wasted his money. Haha.
Jordan and shayne were talking about their shit colour over lunch. =_=
Me and georgina were staring at each other like "omg." hahaha. LUNCH.
Winnie they all went to help clean up the church. ^^ So didn't meet her in the end.
Mean Shayne played a joke on her. T_T We thought she cried! then he felt super bad. xD

Yay. Tomorrow going to meet yushan and jaime.
I'm very scared for my solo. Super Super scared. T_T
Did i mention? I skipped sunday guzheng for the 3rd conseqetive week now!
I'll pray hard i don't get kicked out.. T_T

I didn't keep in contact with anyone else that would affect my mood today, except for the last part.
Today, was the best day of my 4 sucky days. (:

The end.

must you really resort to this?
i actually miss you. alot.

Saturday, October 11, 2008 { 4:52 AM }

okay. Thank god i went for cell today.
Made me feel a bit better.
i'll post another day.

is he the reason?
do feel sad at all?
you seem fne without me..
maybe it was God's will.
Lets just leave it the way it is..
Slowly, i'll forget you.

Thursday, October 9, 2008 { 1:19 AM }

Yay! Freedom, baby! Tell me about it. xD
Okay. Today we had two papers, for the first time in this week.
Home economics and mathematics paper 1. Weird that our paper one comes after our paper two. Haha. They both kinda sucked, actually. Especially home economics. There was this question, the second last one, it asked "Name one ethnic group and state one thing that you should and should not do when eating at the home of a person of that ethnic group" Something like that. T_T My answer was like: Malay. Use your right hand to eat. You should not use your left hand to eat. ^^ So smart sia my answer, sure get zero de, power! xD haha.

but i don't want to fail math, though. I already lost some marks. T_T :(
okay. no one ever mention the M word and P word ever again, kay!! :(
I hope i'll do well
okay. Shan't think too much, its over already anyways.
Tomorrow is officially the last exam, art.
But its something we don't have to study for so its like. We can finally let our minds rest! (:
Might be going bintan over the deepavali weekend cause got nothing to do. Okay, I need need need to practice for my guzheng exam and performance! oh maann. So scared.
EMP used to be all about fun. Now its about appearing proffesional and not losing face.
Urgh. I can't stand it!
Monday going out with yu shan and jaime. Hope i'll have a good time.

Sian la. Lucky got eugene entertain me. I can't believe i just said that.=_=

5 o clock i'm gonna rush my art then do piano theory ( don't feel like it. but bo bian )
Oh ya. Today Rachel, me and jaime pang seh-ed huiyi, yushan and baobei (earlier on. this one's different it was a misunderstanding.we thought she going with ********. sorry baobei!). haha.
RACHEL'S IDEA!! xDDD Hahaha. End up the rest angry. T_T wth sia. no offence la, but this kind of thing also must angry? =_=
Okay. not important. Anyways, wahaha. spamming taiwan channel V. xDD Okay.

I'll go do art now.. (: Bye, people! (:

Labels: sigh.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008 { 1:29 AM }

Guys. All the same laa. Lol. So tyical boys, and they say girls are hard to understand! xD haha.

Anyways. Today we had literature exam. Muahaha.

Okay la. It wasn't as difficult as i expected. I did 2+ pages for my first quesiton and 1 page + for my second question. ((:

Science? Totally screwed up. But theres nothing i can do about it. So oh wells.

but if i don't do well i'll be super sad. Cause i studied really hard..

Oh yes. Birthday tradition.

HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO YOU..

HAPPY BIRRHTDAY TO YOUUUU.

HAPPY BIRRTTTHHDDAAAAAYYYY TO MY DARLING CHHHAAAAARRMMMAAIIINEE~

HAPPPPYYY 14th BIIRRRTTTTHHHHHDDAAAAAYYYY TOOOO YYYOOOUUUUU~~!! :D

Wishing you all the best in everything you do, especially the exams now.. (:

And enjoy your present from the kanasaiis. HAHA. xD

Love you loads, ya? (:

XOXO.

Okay. We took some pictures at marilyn's house that time, making our own lunch. As well as at giant. I put them together into a paranoma picture. (: Like advertiement like that. Haha! Actually quite long ago, but i kept forgetting to post it even though i promised to.. haha. Sorry, loves! (: Here you go. (:

So spastic right. Hahaha. xDD okay. doesn't matter. its cool, kay.

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