if only you gave us a chance♥

Monday, August 31, 2009 { 6:58 AM }

Today was pretty good way better than expected (:
Thanks so much councillors. Love ya loads
To teachers, happy teachers' day.
Happy belated birthday to Mrs Sheri & Ms Kaur. (:

I'm tired. ><

Saturday, August 29, 2009 { 8:27 AM }

Today.
Nothing much different, I went to school for rehearsal, again.
Started at 8.30am. Wanted to meet Pavithra at 7am. But I felt so bad cause something cropped up and I only arrived at 8am. Bought her breakfast, only to raelise she already bought. -.- So I gave one to Fiona. Then I didn't even eat mine, so me buying two was a terrible idea. ><

After the whole rehearsal, getting SCREAMED at like nobody's business, we all left. I went to whitesands with Hidayat, Sayang & Xin. [: Then me and Dayat went popular while xin went home. Zaf joined us later. Bought a pen for Mr Ng for teachers' day, hope he likes it. Really really appreciate all he's done for us. [:

Then I skipped guzheng class, which not to mention I still feel very guilty for.
Met my parents at Century Square to eat, then went for a bit of shopping.
I was totally not in the mood and just tried on and gave it back.
I didn't feel like buying clothes, but thanks for bringing me anyway, mommy.
Then went to Ink to buy a new school bag. It was expensive.. ><
I'd better take care of it. $39.90 ><

i came home and immediately SLEPT.
Fell asleep on the couch, no joke.
Acheing all over, man. ><

Tomorrow there's piano lesson....
How exciting.........
Just hope it'll turn out okay. Thing's are gonna be more relaxed after teachers' day.
Special thanks to all my darrlinngg councillors whom I love oh-so-much, whether sec 1, 2 OR 3 and of course my seniors, <3
After that there'll be a load off all your shoulders. Especially to the Excos involved, thank you so much, you guys have worked sooo sooo hard, and put your time, effort & SWEAT into this. (: Love y'all loads. (:

alsoo.. Happy birthday song!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YANNGG YIIII
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! (:
finally 15! (: All the best, dude! <3

Tuesday, August 25, 2009 { 6:05 AM }

things have been quite stressful of late, whether with school, cca, piano or councillor responsibilities.
With the upcoming teachers' day celebration, planned by the councillors, there's so much to do with so little time.
Deadline's on monday. & i'm trying to rush and juggle.
Teacher's all say i'm not coping, and it does hurt to hear that, when i''m trying so hard!
My piano teacher? she says i give her black face. Without a doubt, that's true. But I don't exactly like to smile when I get scolded, you see.
I mean think about it. Would you?
CCA? I didn't get any post. yeap. that's right. demoted. From Petrol second to ZeroHero. There were. THREE people without a post. Two of them didn't turn up for the interview and only one wasn't chosen. Hiphiphooray. Luck befalls.
As if.

So anyways. Teachers' day is killing me and the couchpotato disease is invading my body, yet again.
I don't do homework. I owe tonnes of it.
Basically I come home and I'm too tired to even touch my bag.
It's terrible.

Stress brings about a whole web of problems.
Mainly pimples. Awful, the outbreaks.
It also brings back my rock bottom self esteem, which btw is continuously dropping now.
Of course, matters of the heart. haha.
I didn't even realise I had this habit, and it's the worst of all my bad habits, which happens to already be bad enough as it is, as you can evidently see.

Nevertheless, the rehearsals with adriana and zaf sayang has been fun
from Glen's impersinations to zaf's dance moves, to Nisa's silly impromptu styles, it has been fun. memories i'll never forget as pres councillor.
It's the only thing I look forward to, as tiring as it may be.

Friends? i'm really not quite sure how many friends I have. Very few to confide in I realise. When I need a shoulder to lean on, or just someone to let it out on, I find myself having to think & consider who to sms, and might even decide against it. They have their own friends, own problems. So do basically i have friends? MANY. how bout a clique? Nope. Okay. At least a group of friends? Nope. No where close. But maybe a couple of confiders. It's difficult to even find time to be with them. but when I do, our schedules clash or they're busy with their own friends anyways. Of course I love them to bits, and they're always there for me. It's not with them, it's me! The self-esteem issues make it hard for me to trust people too. I trust them, but i do need to put thought into it before saying anything! i feel like a complain queen. Well, indeed I am.
But well, i promise it won't happen often.
just that too many things can cause mind blocks. I just needa type it out, just like how dumbledore took his memories out xP
Nah, basically I'm hoping to just relax and take it slow. Juggle my stuff and all (:

Okay. I'll update when I actually have time. haha.